Sunday, October 31, 2004
~ It's raining cats and dogs... Study.... ~
2:48:00 pm
*Sigh*... It's raining again... Heavy rain some more... Thought of going out for awhile to collect the pics from the shop but since it's
raining cats and dogs, I'd rather stay at home and study... Talking about studying...
*Hmmm*... Really dunno what I've been doing these few days... I just don't understand a single thing in the lecture notes... Yeah, I do write notes during lectures but everything is SOO cluttered... Tried burning the midnight oil yesterday but ended up falling asleep halfway...
*What a failure!*... My friend's attempts to keep me awake were futile...
*Haha... Well, he was on duty at work*... But at least, there was someone to disturb in the middle of the night while I was having my break from studying... Okay lah... Enough on dwelling on this... I'll see how the weather goes later... If it's still raining heavily, I'll just go and collect the pics tomorrow before I head for school for my exam paper...
*Back to facing my books again... Sigh*
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Saturday, October 30, 2004
~ Definition of my name... ~
2:43:00 pm
This is the definition of my name... Got it from a webbie... If you wanna try, this is the add... http://miva.zodiacal.com/acro.mv
NAME ANALYSIS FOR: Nadiah Erniyanti
Nadiah:
You tend to be critical of yourself, not always expressing your true desires. You have an interest in health and health matters. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You have a discriminating nature coupled with perseverance and family pride. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You have a need to be up front. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts.
Erniyanti:
You have a need to communicate and express yourself. You are inclined to over intellectualize, and hate to be misquoted. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. Your independence and freedom are important to you. You have a need to be up front. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. Your privacy is important to you. You have a rich inner life. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection.
Well, there's also some truth to it but at the same time, there's also things that just don't match... Oh well...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Friday, October 29, 2004
~ Pain... Numbness... ~
9:26:00 pm
I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING but I can't... Nothing is coming out...
Pain... I'm feeling lots of pain now... Why is it now that you're giving me the photos?? Why are you out to make me suffer?? Why?? I feel so numb now... Memories keep flowing back now... The last thing I want is to be reminded of you... Why are you doing this?? Please don't make me hate you...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Thursday, October 28, 2004
~ WHAT WERE YOU THINKING??!!?? :p ~
1:39:00 pm
Got this from an email... Kinda funny and lame... The language is in Korean (i think!)... But the main thing is... WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!!??!!?? *Haha*... Peace out...
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written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ STRESS!!!!!! *ARRRGGGHHH* ~
12:14:00 pm
1 down, 2 more to go... Well, my exam papers that is... *Oh gosh*... My first paper sucks big time... What can you expect? They're squeezing 3 subjects into one module... And how can they expect us to remember all this within a short period of time... *Arrrggghhh!!! STRESS!!!*... Just glad that it's over but everything is short from over... Another paper on Monday... Another heavy module... Mental health... *Oh great*... Why are they always out to make us suffer?? *Grrrrrr*...
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Well, my brother's leaving for Brunei tonight... Going there for training... Gonna come back just in time for Hari Raya... Well, gonna miss him lah but not so bad since he's often not at home too... *Hehe*... Just wish him all the best and have a safe journey to and back... BON VOYAGE!!
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
~ 2 more days to my first paper.... ~
8:49:00 pm
2 more days to my first exam paper and still counting... *Oh gosh*... I can't believe it... 2 more days... And am I ready?? No I'm not... Definitely not... Really feel that I'm slacking a WHOLE LOT... Well, it's not uncommon for me to slack but hey, I'm already in my final year and I'm still doing this?? *Arrgghh*... What's worse, this up and coming paper is one of the heaviest modules... 3 subjects in 1 module... Can you believe it?? Just hope that everything will go by smoothly... And me? I better stop slacking and start with serious business... Cya!!
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Monday, October 25, 2004
~ My First Ever Driving Lesson ~
4:01:00 pm
*WEE!!*... Had my first ever driving lesson today... *Gosh*... It was fun and scary at the same time... Never expected to learn so many things in one day... Had already gone to 4th gear and drove on the road... It was really, really scary to drive on the road... Felt so nervous that my engine kept failing on me cuz I released the clutch too early... *Haha*... My instructor could have vomited blood... Cuz it's not just once or twice but over and over again... And the worse is, it's at the traffic light!! But I did get a hang of it in the end... *Sigh*... Still feeling excited over it now... But gosh, guess I've got to go all the way to Ubi cuz my instructor is situated there... Oh well...
Now, back to my studying!!
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Thursday, October 21, 2004
~ Late for lesson again.... ~
10:27:00 pm
*Gosh*... This is getting too frequent... For the second time in 3 days, I was late for lesson again... And the worse thing is, there was no excuse for me to be late for class this time... Well, lesson started at 8 am and it was the Mental Health lecture... As since it was a lecture, I had to scan the card before 8.10 am... *Gosh*... Doesn't matter to me if I was late but I had the other two cards with me... So basically, I had no choice!! Thank goodness I managed to scan the cards exactly at 8.10... If it was already 8.11, the attendance wouldn't have been captured and instead of me alone being 'absent', Xiufen and Lina would be considered 'absent' too!!
I better stop coming late... This is extremely a very bad behaviour... If this gets frequent, I may bring it along when I start work later...
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Finally, my fever has already subsided... Well, in fact, it has already subsided since Tuesday... Except now, my ears are occasionally still blocked and phlegm are beginning to form in my throat... And yeah, my nose is still blocked...
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Have found my driving instructor, at last... Gonna start my first lesson this Monday... $26 per lesson at 1-and-a-half hour, is cheap... Just wondering whether he's good... Anyway, can't wait to start my driving lesson...
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Chatted with an old friend yesterday... Yunru was one of my best mates back in secondary school until we started to drift apart in Sec 4... Really enjoyed the chat that we had... Reminising over our school days, how LESS STRESSFUL they were, the crushes that I had, etc... Well, I'm glad that we're contacting again... Cuz I do miss her a lot...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
~ Late for class.... ~
10:34:00 pm
Whoa... Today, I was practically late for my tutorial lesson... But thank goodness, the moment I stepped into the classroom, Mr Bernard Lian was still marking the class attendance... *Phew*... Well, to start off, it was my fault that I left home later than usual... Cuz I was spending too much time in the toilet... *I didn't realise that I took such a long time in the bathroom!!*... By the time I left home, it was already 8.25... Knew I'm gonna miss the bus cuz the bus usually arrive s at 8.25 itself and it takes me 2-3 mins to reach the bus stop... Anyway, Mimi (the stray cat outside my house) was meowing away for food so had no choice but to give her some... *Taken some of my time away already*... Got to the bus stop about 8.30... Waited for the bus for about 5 mins... Well, all in all, the bus journey took about 25 mins and I finally reached the YCK bus stop at 9!! That was the time my lesson was supposed to start... I was practically 'flying' all the way to school... Took me 10 mins from the bus stop all the way to the classroom which would usually take about 20 mins at a normal rate... *Hmm*...
Been sick this past few days... Had fever for the past 4 days since Saturday with the highest at 39.2... *Gosh*... Went to the doctor again and was given Amoxicillin... Currently, fever is already down but my blocked nose and dry cough is irritating me... *Shucks*...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Saturday, October 16, 2004
~ I'm Here For You..... ~
4:41:00 pm
Firehouse - Here For You
So you think you've got it all figured out
Well you know you can't make it alone
Everybody needs somebody to help them out
And you know I could be that someone
And if you ever get lost on life's highway
Don't know where to go
There's just one thing that I want you to know
I am here for you, always here for you
When you need a shoulder to cry on
Someone to rely on
I am here for you
So you think that love is long overdue
Tired of looking for someone to care
Let me tell you now the choice is up to you
But you know that I will always be there
I am here for you, always here for you
When you needing someone to hold you
Remember I told you
I am here for you
I am here for you
So now you've got it all figured out
And you know you've found someone that cares
And if you ever need somebody to help you out
Well you know I would always be there
And if you ever get lost on life's highway
Don't know where to go
There's just one thing that I want you to know
I am here for you, always here for you
When you need a shoulder to cry on
Someone to rely on
I am here for you, always here for you
When you needing someone to hold you
Remember I told you
I am here for you
I am here for you
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Friday, October 15, 2004
~ All about Ramadhan ~
9:34:00 pm
Well, today is the start of Ramadhan which is the Islamic fasting month...
A little story on why we Muslims have to fast:
Fasting is the third
Rukun Islam or in translation, the rules of Islam... So it's a must for all able-bodied and healthy Muslims to fast during Ramadhan... However, there are some group of people in which they are exempted from fasting...
1) Females who are menstruating
2) People who are not of a sound mind
3) People who worries that their health will be affected due to fasting
But despite not being able to fast, these people, especially those in 1 & 3, MUST RESPECT those Muslims who are fasting... Example: by not eating in public... *It's really a shame to those who eat openly in the public... Don't they have a sense of shame or guilt??*... Anyway, those who were unable to fast are required to 'pay back' their fast after Ramadhan...
In Islam, fasting is not just a matter of abstaining from food and drinks... But also a way for us to cleanse our mind, body and soul... We should avoid things such as gossiping (gosh, this is SO me!), listening to bad things, talking about bad things and looking at things that we're not supposed to see... That's why it's not really allowed for us to seek entertainments during this period... Instead, try to seek for forgiveness from Allah (God)...
In a way, fasting is also to remind us on how people who are poor (esp in Third World Countries) have to go on without food and sometimes, even for days... This is one reason why we should thank Allah for what we have currently and feel blessed about it cuz not everyone has the pleasure of having what we have...
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Anyway, what I have wrote above was reflected by what I heard from a stranger yesterday... A group of Malay gals were talking things about fasting... Well, me and Mac happened to take the same lift as we were heading for clinical skills class... What I've heard was totally shameful... She was saying in Malay, "Alamak, tomorrow start fasting already... Dunno how I'm going to cope without
smoking... Maybe I won't even fast... Confirm the whole month I won't fast."... *Gosh*... Could you imagine how embarrassed I was when I heard this... Well, maybe Mac wouldn't understand but what would others reaction be when they hear such things?? For one moment, I felt like hiding cuz I've never expected this to come out from the mouth of a fellow Muslim... *Sigh*...
As I've said, this is what I've reflected on... I'm not saying that I'm perfect and that all along, I've done all my fast with no faults... NO!! Cuz I'm a human too and humans make err at times... No one is perfect in this world... But seriously, doesn't that girl have any sense of conscientious and shame? Cuz I would... Anyway, it's her own matter... She'll deal it on her own...
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Today's start to my fasting wasn't smooth-sailing unlike the previous years... I was down with my 'on-off' flu... All the way from like 6am till the time I went to polyclinic... Been having this flu for like 1-2 weeks and sometimes, despite not sneezing, I would have lots of mucus in my nostrils... Was given some lozenges and medication... Anyway, thanks to Germac and Fione for 'dragging' me there cuz I would not have gone to the doctor at all if they have not accompanied me...
Hope that the other days of fasting will go by smoothly without any flinches...
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Today was also the dateline for our nursing project essay... *Gosh... I'm so glad that it's over*... Time to take a short break before I start on my revisions for the exams...
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To all muslims, Happy Fasting!! And to those non-muslims, enjoy and *peace*!!
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
~ Am I a FAILURE?? ~
8:10:00 pm
Had my retest on practical skills (airway management) today... I passed... Usually, people who passed would feel relieved, happy, all the positive emotions... But instead I cried... Yes I cried... People would have guessed that I failed... *Weird ain't I?*... The reason I cried:
I felt that I wasn't competent enough... The one that I did on was a dummy... But can you imagine if
that was a real patient? The patient would have DIED!! The skills lecturer who assessed me said that all of us are going to graduate in approximately 6 months' time... Seriously and HONESTLY, I'm not ready to graduate... I'm not yet ready to face the
real working world... *Sigh*...
Usually I would study for my tests all for the sake of passing... I don't really care about the after-consequences later on... As long as I passed, it doesn't matter anymore... So when the lecturer was giving feedback about my assessment, I felt as though I did a very bad job, when in fact I really did even though I had all my steps right... And I just couldn't hold back my tears... The lecturer was like telling me, "You're a big girl. You shouldn't cry."... And she made me promise her that I would do better when I'm out there... Seriously, not many lecturers give me a huge impact when it comes to academic and skills... But I want to be a better nurse... I don't wanna be a failure...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Monday, October 11, 2004
~ Lost & Found Cat.... Anyone?? ~
8:25:00 pm
A cat found outside my home... With a collar around it's neck... Definitely a person's pet right? So, lost and found cat... Anyone's??
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Everything's fine now.... ~
7:35:00 pm
I'm just glad that everything's fine now... Between me and Fione... Well, I wasn't angry at all in the first place... But yeah, I felt stupid to why I had such an idea... Just that I didn't know how to react and what to reply back... That's why I chose to ignore the message... Anyway, I hope that the three of us will stay together through thick and thin... I'm sorry that I came out with such an idea but I really don't want another person to suffer under HER...
*I really love the two of you a lot and I can't imagine having to survive on my own... Thank you for being here in my life, being in the same class as me... Many, many hugz to Mac and Fione... I will remember you for as long as I live... Muacks*...
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Friday was a movie day... Well, sort of... Hah... Fione was telling me, Sapphire, Xiufen, Siti, Lina and Florence about the movie that she had watched with Wenhao (Fione's buddy), which was '
One Missed Call'... It was a scary Japanese movie so well, everyone was attentive listening to Fione... My handphone was being used as the model by Fione to describe more about the movie... SO... As she was telling the story, my handphone suddenly just lit up and vibrated (minus the tone cuz it was on silent mode) and I just freaked out so does a few of them... Well, it was a missed call and I was a little bit scared to check... Thank goodness, Lina owned up and said that it was her who did it...
*Gosh Lina... Thanks so much for bring in the suspense to the story ya... Gave me quite a huge fright*... Anyway, after that, Fione 'demanded' for everyone to pay $6.50 for the 'show'...
*Harhar... Dream on! Hehe*...
Went to JB after school... Thank goodness lessons ended at 1pm so I didn't have to rush home at all... This time double checked that I did not forget to bring along my passport... Anyway, there was a jam at about 3pm...
*Traffic jams at the Causeway are not common on weekdays*... So it was kinda weird... Lots of big, big trucks... Anyway, we left JB at about 7.30pm... And there was still a
massive jam... Gosh, and there wasn't even a single bus in sight... Finally got home at about 10+pm when we could have gotten home within an hour from the Causeway...
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Went to JB again on Saturday for a body massage, body scrub or '
mandi lulur' and sauna... All for the price of RM80 which is less than S$40... A real stealer... Felt very relaxed and fresh after that...
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This week Friday is the deadline for the 1500 words Entrepreneurship Essay... I'm still at Findings and Analysis and I've already wrote 600 odd words... Gotta cut it down... Anyway, I'm off to write my essay now...
*Peace*
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Friday, October 08, 2004
~ Terrible Day ~
11:23:00 pm
Today is a very terrible day... A really terrible one...
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Gosh... I just don't feel like blogging... No mood...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Thursday, October 07, 2004
~ A Day Out @ Bugis ~
11:19:00 pm
Well, today was a long and tiring but great day... There was only an hour of lesson from 8 to 9 in school which was the Mental Health module... Initially, we were supposed to head to Changi General Hospital as Fione and Mac are going to be sent there for their VTP so they wanted to look around the hospital... However, the plans were changed as Mac had to head to TTSH to collect her x-ray film for her upcoming overseas attachment...
Anyway, after accompanying Mac to TTSH, we headed to Bugis Junction to get Fione's diary... In the order to save money (well, doesn't really matter to me cuz I'm using bus concession), we took the shuttle bus from Novena MRT Station to KKH... Alighted at KKH and transferred to another shuttle service to Bugis MRT Station... *Sounds lame huh*... Went to Muji @ Seiyu Bugis Junction to take a look at the diary that Fione wanted to buy... Looks nice but a bit hard to close the notebook (maybe due to the hard cover)... Anyway, went to another book store in BJ before deciding that all of us were hungry... But before that, we went to the Watsons... *1st trip in*... Bought the Horn chocolate from Meiji... *Mmmm... Yum yum*... It was kinda cheap (usual price: $2.60, selling @ $1.99) so I got 2 boxes... *Gosh, I'm gonna grow fatter sooner or later*... Finally headed to Banquet @ Raffles Hospital to have our brunch... I had a large plate of fish & chips (and the fish was really huge!), Fione had chicken chop while Mac had ipoh hor fun (not too sure what's the name)...
After lunch, we headed back to Muji @ BJ to get the diary that Fione wanted... Saw a very cute and small photo album which cost $13.90... Well, I couldn't resist the temptations so I got the photo album... *Haha*... Was a little bit of a wasted trip cuz Fione did not buy her diary in the end... *Sigh, waste my time... Hee*... We were soon joined by Chingyen... Well, that's when the shopping started... *Shoes, clothes, accessories, etc*... No denial but I was getting bored... *Haha... Not my kind of shopping you see*... Felt so tired that I could just collapse on the floor... *Haha... Yeah a bit exaggerating*... Finally got a break by having some drinks at the Rockery (am I right?)... Wanted to go to Orchard but in the end, it was kinda late so we just hanged around in BJ...
Went into Watsons (again!) since they wanted to get some stuffs... Anyway, Mac left off at 6.20pm so me, Fione and Chingyen had our dinner at Long John Silver, not before Chingyen got her milk powder container from Seiyu... Talked about some stuffs... Finally headed home at 7.45... Anyway, the bus journey seems SO LOONNGG cuz I was in need of the toilet... No choice but had to stop at Khatib Interchange to visit the loo... *Haha... Nature calls... What to do?? Hee*... Reached home just in time to watch the last 3 contestants of the SG Idol perform...
To you guys:
Thanks for all the time spent today... Although I got tired and bored (oops!), but yeah I enjoyed it... Thanks everyone! *Muacks*
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Sunday, October 03, 2004
~ What's the deal about getting married?? ~
10:13:00 pm
Can somebody tell me, do I have got the face that I'm gonna get married soon? Haha... Oh gosh... Today, I went to the Malay Wedding & Hari Raya Fair at Singapore Expo and both me and my sis got bombarded with pamphlets on the wedding stuffs... Some just handed them normally, some were like so 'trying to pull us aside'... Haha... If I had told them my real age, I guessed that they would not believe it... Oh well...
But on a serious note, getting married is all the way at the back of my mind... I don't wanna settle down so soon... There's still so many things that I wanna achieve that I wanna do alone... Nothing to stop me, nothing to hold me back... I don't see the need why I should settle down early... Call me a '
high achiever' or what-so-ever... But it's better to have dreams and goals rather than just to be 'stagnant' there, doing nothing... But I know that at the end of the day, we can only plan but only God decides... So my plan is: I would only want to settle down at least 6-8 years from now... *Hey! That's not too bad right??*... Until I have got what I want, I would
NEVER settle down...
One more thing, the divorce rates of young Malay couples in Singapore are quite on the high side now... Yeah, I'm quite sceptical... Marriage based on love ALONE hardly works... You see, marriage will not survive without money, career, what-so-ever... I'm not saying that you should marry for money... No... But do you think you can live without money?? Well, maybe it's possible if it's not in Singapore but here, nah... I doubt so... Yeah, initially they can say,
"Our marriage can survive on love... It's okay if we don't have money... We can always work it out later..." Harhar... Then what are you going to eat? What are you going to live on? What are you going to wear? Are you going to keep running back to your parents' house when in fact, you're already MARRIED?!?! Well, somebody or anybody, you can try to prove me wrong... But till then, my mindset will always remain this way... Marriage based on LOVE ALONE will never work...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
